Suchness.
A brief linguistic modality exercise to illustrate my perception, and frankly I have found all this rather endearing, truly, :
I picture a tall man, in fine robes, with a long beard somewhat like a wizard in a loud voice saying "Suchness" and staring with great intensity into the seemingly empty space ahead. All when asked what he would like at the store, Poor clerk...she's like three seconds from calling security, uncertain as to the man's intentions. He seems rather cranky but that passes and afterwards we all politely ignore it.
In truth all he wants is peanut butter, but I don't know it, as I watch, I try to help as well. I just want to clarify what the man wants so we can search and maybe he can have it, or at least so others who do know where to look can understand him, but his purpose seems to be to speak single words or a few phrases and he repeats himself often. He seems certain that he is being perfectly clear. I search his face for signs this is an act, I look around for cameras, but he seems genuine.
I wish I could help, I kinda know the store, not super well, but kinda, and I would happily wander about all day trying to retrieve the item if he could so much as point in a relevant or understandable way, but he just stands still, saying strange things for which no one (including him when I ask) can really account for.
It all seems harmless so I will move along, but the strange event will stay with me and long will I wonder what his purpose in the store was, I truly hope he is well but I worry a little for him, because he did not seem happy. I wonder why he came in the first place, he must have wanted something. I wish we could have worked it out together.
Take care of yourself ground, I know you have something here you wish to convey, I wish you could too, but it just isn't working, I imagine that's frustrating but I have wandered the store all day looking for "Suchness" and none of the paths that there are seem to lead to it, and you deny that "path" is a thing. There is simply no expression of meaning past the very surface of what you are saying and that surface is just not the whole thing as far as I can tell. I hope you will forgive the linguistic modality exercise but I just can't come up with a better way to express how strangely charming this has been.
I won't bother you about it further. Stay safe and healthy!
