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Offline Reem

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Mindfulness and Anxiety (The rush to recover)
« on: July 31, 2016, 05:15:50 pm »
I have experienced anxiety for most of my life and for the past few years anxiety has impeded on my capacity to work. I have a great psychiatrist and am looking into finding a new therapist that specializes in Mindfulness Based Cognitive Therapy. With the help of mindfulness meditation I am finding myself less overwhelmed and less reactive to the thoughts and emotions that pass by. There is one fear that continues to show up in meditation though that I'm hoping someone could shed some light on.

“Ego says, ‘Once everything falls into place, I’ll feel peace.’ Spirit says, ‘Find your peace, and then everything will fall into place.’” ~Marianne Williamson

I feel that my peace of mind is to be found somewhere in an ideal future where my anxiety doesn't prevent me from working and I am able to support myself. I feel a lot of pressure to recover and to do so as soon as possible. Where as I am able to sit with most fears and allow them to pass in their own time, I feel that this fear is very valid and I am constantly trying to grasp at it and entertain it. It is fueling a lot of my current anxiety. I don't feel that I can rest until everything falls into place.

If anybody could offer some perspective on my situation I would be most grateful! It helps to have others to share my experience with and I thank you if you have taken the time to read this far.

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Re: Mindfulness and Anxiety (The rush to recover)
« Reply #1 on: August 01, 2016, 03:09:29 am »
I have experienced anxiety for most of my life and for the past few years anxiety has impeded on my capacity to work. I have a great psychiatrist and am looking into finding a new therapist that specializes in Mindfulness Based Cognitive Therapy. With the help of mindfulness meditation I am finding myself less overwhelmed and less reactive to the thoughts and emotions that pass by. There is one fear that continues to show up in meditation though that I'm hoping someone could shed some light on.

“Ego says, ‘Once everything falls into place, I’ll feel peace.’ Spirit says, ‘Find your peace, and then everything will fall into place.’” ~Marianne Williamson

I feel that my peace of mind is to be found somewhere in an ideal future where my anxiety doesn't prevent me from working and I am able to support myself. I feel a lot of pressure to recover and to do so as soon as possible. Where as I am able to sit with most fears and allow them to pass in their own time, I feel that this fear is very valid and I am constantly trying to grasp at it and entertain it. It is fueling a lot of my current anxiety. I don't feel that I can rest until everything falls into place.

If anybody could offer some perspective on my situation I would be most grateful! It helps to have others to share my experience with and I thank you if you have taken the time to read this far.

I think most, if not all, cognitive behavioral therapy is mindfulness-based, even if it doesn't say so. My experience was very positive when I went to therapy in a time of great stress. Although I had been meditating for many years, the training the therapist had received meant that we could target what was stressing me out, and so I could move on more quickly than if I had been trying to do it all by myself on the mat, so to speak.

Even if things don't 'fall into place' as quickly as you would like, the experience should change how you react to stuff. For me, its working on my relationship with things that happen to me and around me that is important, rather than being able to understand everything and be at peace with it, but I know what you mean.

Hope this helps.
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Re: Mindfulness and Anxiety (The rush to recover)
« Reply #2 on: August 02, 2016, 03:40:01 am »
I feel a lot of pressure to recover and to do so as soon as possible.


Putting this kind of pressure on yourself will only make things more difficult.  Treat yourself with acceptance and kindness, and recognise the progress you have made.  Small steps will get you there.

The first stage of the metta bhavana practice might be helpful:  http://www.wildmind.org/metta/one

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Re: Mindfulness and Anxiety (The rush to recover)
« Reply #3 on: August 04, 2016, 05:22:10 pm »
Thank you both for your guidance!

I am inspired to find a therapist. I feel that it will aid in my meditation and in gaining insight into my anxiety. I am putting way too much pressure on myself to control my situation. I am pushing my agenda upon life rather than acting out of intention and allowing things to unfold. Lovinkindness is definitely something that I need to implement into my mindfulness practice.

 


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