Author Topic: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution  (Read 448 times)

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As a sufferer of Bipolar Disorder, I proclaim I am now no longer taking medication as this enhances my spiritual powers to the intention of delivering greater compassion, but at times to the cost of them at times consuming me.

What is Bipolar Disorder?

Bipolar Disorder is considered a mood disorder where the affected can after a situation provoked the afflicted, psychologically enter a period of one of the two moods in the extreme: An elevated mood, called mania, or a lowered mood, called psychotic depression. There can also be periods of mixed symtoms from both the extremes, called mixed psychotic mania.

As I have come to understand it as, it is when a situation arises that the afflicted does not know how to handle, psychologically, and enters into a positive reinforcement continuum. In Buddhist understanding, consider it to be the attachment of everything that can be attached to, self-view becomes deity, emptiness becomes emptiness in emptiness in emptiness in emptiness. Wholesome practice becomes the entire fundamentalist approach towards everything you understand as Buddhism, and applying it as an approach, towards everything. This is complete ego dissolution. You can not teach a person in ego dissolution because a dissolved ego becomes the teaching and teaches what regards to be the teaching whether it be skillful or not. Neither can you resonate with a dissolved ego because reason is everything semantically related to the word reason. What we have to understand in regards to harm reduction when it comes to ego dissolution is how to approach it. Ego dissulotion can only react, not respond in the matter of a personal opinion or view. I have profound spiritual abilities, therefore it is crucial to learn how to harness them, not fear them, when ego dissulotion occurs. Because when a dissolved ego meets fear, it enhances the fear because it becomes one with it, hence the dissolution of ego. Expression might be frightful, but it is not really expression from a personal space, it is the expression of connecting the dots even though they might not make sense.

Now you must decide what to do during the next episode, as I have recognized the recent two weeks becoming descended into one, which would explain "Robin Hood"-behavior. It was the unconditional merit-sharing because of the dissolved ego. In fact, this makes me a pioneer in harnessing spiritual powers with Bipolarity. I must restate that this is for the greater compassion for everyone. But might not be recognized as such since the environment is a huge if not the singular factor in determening the outcome of each episode. They will of course diminish in time as I gain control by recognizing my own kleshas and how they turn the events of my behavior.

You can not teach a dissolved ego, because it attaches to the teaching. You can however train the dissolved ego by only exposing things that increase whatever you wish to create within an ego, unconditionally in love with Buddhism. Because you are my friends, and I will love you as such. As soon as my behavior becomes seemingly erratic, peculiar, deviant, illogical, egotistical or unskilfull, this is the time to recognize, "He has entered ego dissolvement."

This makes us both pioneers in investigating the true nature of the Bipolar Mind. I sincerely hope this makes sense, and I hope we can make this work out in the future, if not less, by harm reduction.

The learning process behind a manic mind is so fast it alters the structure of the brain by brain plasticity in a matter of days, it can learn years of transcendental knowledge, in days. Expose it to wrath and it becomes wrath, after the episode I have learned wrath but will not use it unless absolutely necessary. Expose peace and it becomes peace, after the episode I will have learned ways of peace. Perhaps this is what some of you were referring to as "Guru Yoga". Just recognize you can mold it, as I can't. I will restate however I will in time gain more and more control. :namaste:
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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #1 on: June 24, 2017, 03:48:25 pm »
As a sufferer of Bipolar Disorder, I proclaim I am now no longer taking medication <snip>

You should talk to your pysician and get back on your meds.

Right now.

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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #2 on: June 24, 2017, 03:58:32 pm »
As a sufferer of Bipolar Disorder, I proclaim I am now no longer taking medication <snip>

You should talk to your pysician and get back on your meds.

Right now.

I understand, out of compassion your need and your passion to disclose, my promotion to destroy.

I will now take:

300 mg quetiapine
0.5 mg clonazepam
1 mg risperidone

They will take effect in less than one hour.

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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #3 on: June 24, 2017, 04:23:08 pm »
Take precepts, incl. formost abstaining from entertainment, train in renouncing, and be patient. Enjoy being blameless and seek for simply work, that does not involve much need of logical thinking, physical cleaning or housekeeping, sweeping or similar is fine.

Medication, for the most, aside of Buddhas, has just the purpose to make one functioning for productivity, for society.

To life if possible, in a monastery or in church or other world-withdrawn community would be giving goog circumstances.

Put here a short note under your avatar about you "problem" and use a picture and possible your real name, so to be aware and to approach here with humble proper selfestimate.
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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #4 on: June 24, 2017, 04:43:21 pm »
Put here a short note under your avatar about you "problem" and use a picture and possible your real name, so to be aware and to approach here with humble proper selfestimate.

The medication made me so sleepy I can barely keep my eye's open.

To make me fully understand, can you give instructions on how to do what you want me to do?

1. Example of note?
2. Example of avatar?
3. Why my real name? Of course out of compassion but I'm scared about identity theft. My whole name?

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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #5 on: June 24, 2017, 04:58:06 pm »
There is no need to give whole indentity info. Use your given name and chose a picture that you find that it shows you like you are now best.

In that way you not only do not lose your mind forgetting your self but also given not so much space for letting body and mind astray from each other. While it is for the most a foolish funny game to play around though anonymos, "I" is a good and needed protector.

Some simply explaining, down on earth and conductive for your practice, protection for your self and others: Suggestions in regard of "Avatar and User placements". If one comes into a realm where Dhamma can be understood, it is possible to understand it. So take on an existence here, that is not to high, best in human realm or lower Devas.

Note: maybe if possible a link to this topic "Info about me see link in signation" (or homepage)

And it not good to dwell amongs "equal" generally. Seek if possible places with lesser crazy deities and good protected. Down on earth.
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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #6 on: June 24, 2017, 08:24:21 pm »

The medication made me so sleepy I can barely keep my eye's open.

Hi Solodris

If the medication is highly disagreeable with you, I would suggest to consult another doctor to inquire into if an alternative medication may be more suitable for you.

To make me fully understand, can you give instructions on how to do what you want me to do?

1. Example of note?
2. Example of avatar?
3. Why my real name? Of course out of compassion but I'm scared about identity theft. My whole name?

Please ignore what Johann wrote & wants. This is merely a small chatsite & is not the place for therapy (even though it is a place for Buddhist friendship).

With metta, friend.  :buddha:
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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #7 on: June 25, 2017, 01:28:38 am »

Hi Solodris,

Please see a doctor as soon as possible.


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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #8 on: June 25, 2017, 08:46:21 am »
How are you today, Nyom Johannes?
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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #9 on: June 25, 2017, 11:59:24 am »
Please ignore what Johann wrote & wants.

Yes, please ignore Johann.

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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #10 on: June 25, 2017, 01:14:59 pm »
I understand what you are saying about ignoring some of what Johann wants, and I am very grateful for all the metta. :namaste:

And it not good to dwell amongs "equal" generally. Seek if possible places with lesser crazy deities and good protected. Down on earth.

This is however interesting, what if when finding myself in preta loka, I can build a protective deity manifestation that produces a practice out of preta loka.

Hi Solodris

If the medication is highly disagreeable with you, I would suggest to consult another doctor to inquire into if an alternative medication may be more suitable for you.

The medication I took at the time was the ones I had on an "as-needed"-basis, I felt like I needed to break the mania completely, that's why I became so sleepy, so not to become further agitated. Much metta. :namaste:

I suppose I should prioritize practicing my own life before practicing higher levels of Dhamma. With metta.

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Re: Harm reduction: Understanding Bipolar Disorder and Ego dissolution
« Reply #11 on: June 25, 2017, 10:03:49 pm »
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This is however interesting, what if when finding myself in preta loka, I can build a protective deity manifestation that produces a practice out of preta loka.
Many start as pretas when they contact the dhamma initially. Some cannot leave existence as preta for a long time even after having contacted the dhamma. And some soon are 'reborn' as gods of form or formless realm and stay there for a long time while practicing the dhamma. The fortunate however are 'reborn' as rational humans, neither dominated by craving nor dominated by the pleasures of form or formless realm.

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I suppose I should prioritize practicing my own life before practicing higher levels of Dhamma. With metta.
Practicing life isn't different from practicing dhamma. If practicing dhamma appears as if being different from practicing life then this is fake dhamma practice.
Also consider this: the most dramatic confusion sometimes causes the most rapid attainment of nirvana. Why is this? It is because there must already pre-exist a subliminal awareness of things not really being the way they appear for such a confusion being able to arise. What may be missing is just a little 'thwack' to sort out the alleged chaos.
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